celebration.. success..

October 23rd, 2010

so last night was the dinner.. it was good.. it didn’t start until 8pm.. but I was able to keep my eyes open the whole time..  we started in the cocktail lounge.. with the piano man.. and enjoyed some faux cocktails.. while my stomach growled for food.. they had a nice little 3 list spirit free cocktail list.. so I was able to join in.. 

we enjoyed conversations.. and waited patiently for our table to be ready.. 

we were than ushered to our table.. where we were treated like royalty.. there were four sets of hands and arms coming at us in every direction..  crumbs were removed.. glasses were filled.. and my water glass never went under the half way mark..  we all started off with our appies.. mine being the truffle fries.. how could I resist.. 

its ironic because my one food aversion so far is grease.. and I ordered fries! but I man’d up and  waved through it.. we than all had our amazing Canlis salad.. amazing really is an understatement.. ice cold romaine.. fresh mint shavings.. smoked bacon.. olive oil crusted croutons.. fresh Parmesan cheese.. and this wonderful lemon olive oil vinaigrette.. it was heaven..  there was no picture taken.. because I dove in head first.. 

we toasted to Barbie with a glss of chardonay.. she always liked a nice bottle of white.. and I let some touch my tongue.. but barely tasted it.. I cant justify an alcohol taste in the first trimester.. I am creating fingernails and eye lids here people.. it felt to weird.. 

that was my glass of chardonnay..

our entrees arrived.. and I had my gnocchi and black truffles.. i was beyond way to stuffed to eat.. but I managed to take down 3 of them.. at 40 bucks a plate.. I had to..  I did however kick it up a notch when desert came.. I made myself.. because I wasn’t enjoying any cocktails.. I always seem to justify desert.. creme brulee with the most crazy wild kiwi flavored sorbet I had ever had.. one touch of the taste buds.. and they literally exploded.. if anyone working would have saw me eating it.. they probably would have thought I wasn’t enjoying myself.. but I was!

we cheers’d.. we talked.. we laughed.. we cried.. we enjoyed a great woman’s life and told stories about her past.. we reminisced and talked about if she was here and what ifs.. we brought her presence to the table that night and lived for her.. 

these events are slowly turning into more celebratory occasions.. and less gut-churning events.. we still miss her like crazy.. and just wish for her to be here.. but it is getting a little bit easier.. it will be 6 years this November.. and it is wild to think of what has happened in 6 years.. I truly believe that Barbie lived such an amazing fun filled life because she knew she had limited time on this earth.. I know her and Ronnie found each other when they were only 14 for that same reason.. now a days.. most people don’t even meet until their late 20s.. and they got all this extra time to fall in love.. and court.. and just know each other..  my father in law told me on my wedding night.. that barbie told him that she knew me and Dustin would marry one day.. it melted my heart.. its one of my wedding highlights.. 

Barbie lived well.. so we could live well. and I thank her for giving birth to my husband and letting me fall in love with her wonderful family she raised.. I only hope I raise my kids a fraction of how she raised hers.. and I will be just fine!