mamas.. help!

December 09th, 2010

ok.. today I had that child.. I woke up really motivated and realized that I have to start going to the gym this pregnancy.. I was so disciplined with Olives pregnancy.. on my feet 5 days a week.. prenatal yoga video 4-5 times a week.. the gym.. and now.. not so much.. my hips hurt.. my back aches.. and I am finally realizing that its because my body isn’t in motion as much as it was the first time around.. but that’s not what I need help with.. 

today I put Olive in the gym daycare.. I talked about how fun the gym will be as we walked there.. I went in.. took off her coat.. introduced her.. and it started.. the screaming.. the “mamas” and the wailing.. I just gave a crooked smile and walked out.. this book I am reading is really making me realize how important taking care of myself is.. and so I left and threw on the Ipod.. and hit the elliptical.. it felt great.. I loved the music.. I went to lift weights.. stretched and called it a day.. mostly because the little baby was not liking it to much.. I walked into the daycare.. and I could hear her before I saw her.. she was clung like a leech to the woman’s back just yelling “daddy.. daddy.. daddy.. daddy” (not mommy.. daddy :(  her face was red and blotchy.. and she was gasping for air.. they said she did it for the entire 45 minutes.. i walked over to get her and she leapt into my arms and and would not even lift her head out of my neck.. I tried to make a joke out of it.. and was like.. oh great.. I have that child.. and asked what they thought the best approach was.. and they said the more I bring her.. the more she will warm up.. but it just broke my heart.. 

I know my time with her is limited before baby #2 rocks her world.. and I dont want her gasping for air every day.. but lord knows I need it.. and this child needs it.. but what approach do I take next? do I keep throwing her in there.. with the same routine? and wait for her to grasp that it is fun.. I walked out feeling defeated with her leached around my really sore just worked out arms.. 

I will take advice in all shapes and forms!!