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  I am tired.. tired tired tired.. and no .. I am not preggo ;)  lol..  I was really banking on some good ol wedding stress to keep me up at night.. and wake me early in the morn.. just like my maid of honor luella! she used to be up at like 5:30 am doing things for her wedding.. although she had 7 times more people to entertain :)  The wedding is almost together! it feels great..  I dont even think there is anything else to email my wedding cordinator ( I am sure she is relieved ).. any tips out there from anyone about the big day would be very much appreciated!kacey151515@hotmail.com I know every Bride strides for this.. but I really want to take the whole day in and remember as much as I can. I figure that one thing I have going for me is that we have lived together for over three years.. and we have a love child.. I mean .. the element of “surprise” , “did I make the right choice?” and “will this be the father of my children” is kind of out the window at this moment! I am very excited for this wedding.. and looking where I am now.. and if I would have had a simple one with just the three of us somewhere.. I know I would have regret that. I need my daddy to walk me down that sandy aisle!

  For my handful of friends that follow this blog.. you know this is not me.. or my dad.. or Dustin.. lol.. but isnt that a cute dress and a great veil!  

  We have taken a lot of “wedding” things out of the wedding.. and kept it kind of party/causal.. because I dont want the stress of having an order to the wedding … only to look back and not even care if it happens..  We have a couple things we are keeping… a couple toasts/speeches..  conga lines.. and tequilla tastings ;)  but all those things are standard right?!  I picked out my flowers.. I like that I had 5 choices.. and I just picked one..  I dont even know what kind of flowers these even are!

                                                   …on another note…

  My little peanut pop has a fever… a raging body fever.. we stand outside in a diaper.. she gets a cold cloth.. lots of fluid.. but she wont eat.. and when you are dealing with an almost 16 month old who is maybe tipping the scales at 18 lbs now.. it scares me.. I feel like I am going to crunch her rib cage when I hold her..  but she still motors around and calls people on my cell phone.. ( I always said I would not be a cell phone mom.. that she can play with her toys and that is mommys toys.. and yet.. when we are in a restaurant and her high pitched squeel kicks in (its the red hair) and my food just hit the table.. yes. she gets her ultimate favorite thing to play with! and she calls grandma.. and daddys work.. and anna a lot.. because anna is first in my contact list. Olive didnt care that anna was on a plane to toronto.. she called her anyways.. she gets this look in her eyes like… I must have it! and so I cave.. it is a hunk of crap anyways!!

 and now I must get back to this house.. this new life filled with toys.. tambourines, two high chairs,  and a kitchen table filled with wedding trinkets.. and even though it is raining outside for the first time in weeks it seems.. and all I want to do it go get some grocerys, rent Julie and Julia.. and make a comfy little bed on the floor with my bear bear while daddy is in Miami.. I must clean!  (who are we kidding though.. that stuff can be done in a couple of minutes.. )

  I am sure you have heard me talk aboutwww.kellehampton.com before?! she is amazing.. she has honestly changed my perpective on being a mama.. she balances her life so well between housework and playing on the lawn.. and getting outside and letting your kids get dirty..  everyone should follow her blog.. she is a young hot mama who had  her second daughter who was born with down syndrome (she didnt know until she delivered) and the way this baby has changed her life!!  and everyones lives across the world right now.. it is awesome! and she also posted a photo that I hope to replicate at my wedding in 2 1/2 weeks ..

 I just love it.. I have always loved the water ( minus sharks and deep parts of the ocean) but the sounds and feel.. and waves.. and always thought  that I am to live by the water in my life.. and this picture just resonates with me. I am excited to be surrounded by friends.. family.. and LIFE at my wedding as I get married 04/16/2010..I look forward to that day of anxiety.. relief.. tears.. laughter.. love.. and creating unforgetable moments..

   I hope everyone will have a margarita on that day for me that could not make it!! or a virgin if you are preggo or breastfeeding ;) I love the month of April.. there is something about it! spring.. fresh.. life.. sun.. everything gets to bloom again.. April is a good month to get married ;)