mmm mmm good

 So Dustin is back from Miami.. and I am excited to see him home.. mentally! This has been a long week with Olive.. I know teething sucks for every child.. but teething SUCKS! two giant molars.. ripping through her soft pink gums.. and she is not happy.  She wakes up 3 times a night.. is very picky with what she eats.. and wants to be held at all times!  I look forward to work tonight..  

this is the photo I would love to post to respresent our week… 

but I think this one is more appropriate!

yup.. that one sums it up.. 

I am really wanting Easter turkey dinner this year.. I usually could go either way for turkey dinners.. but I am loving the thought of stuffing.. gravy.. pickles… buns.. mmm.. my friend Chrissy made me my first turkey sandwhich last year for christmas.. and I am CRAVING it.. little bit of cranberries.. turkey.. stuffing.. mmm… 

with this being said.. It is almost time to put Olive down for a nap and turn on the P90X  it is getting harder to do with the more stuff that gets put on my plate.. but there is only 2 weeks left until the wedding.. and I have left 

a two sheet duvet.. its a good thing

thank you martha stewart! I have now pulled out my sewing machine and it is out of the box.. aching to be used.. I must get to a fabric store and get some thread and fabric for this bad boy!  There are many projects that are waiting to be started and created by moi.. ruffles on onesies.. precious little quilts.. maybe some curtains.. the possibilites are endless! Thank you Hallmark channel for replacing my ususal 7th Heaven with Martha Stewart.. 

Easter also started a tad early when Olive discovered her easter basket from last year waiting to be filled in 4 days!

even the vaccum will not suck up the tiny strings that are embedded into 

my stag day..

this is a hen party.. woman only..

Thank you India

  last night was my stag-do.. a nice intimate little group to send me off into marriage bliss.. full of traveling.. dreaming together.. gourmet home cooked meals and sweet romance seven days a week!! riiight.. riiight!!! 

  all things I wanted were accomplished.. italian food.. spiked frapps.. a great bridal shower..  and great conversation!  my moh fohs did a great job at decorating and making everything so special.. and I really felt the love last night ladies!!

                  

  We went and had our hair done by Blo in Yaletown.. and I highly recommend it..  in my sisters case.. she recommends it if you want to walk out looking like Trisha Yearwood.. ahaha.. I was dying of laughter in my chair.. her hair girl was so offended :0 .. I loved mine.. I am afraid at the attempt to comb out the teasing that was done to make my hair large and in charge! It feels like I have a thick wig on.. but I will take that over my thin baby rats nest hair anyday.. I was spoiled all day.. it was so great..  I left with tunics.. bathing suits.. sunnies.. xxx.. and so many cool treats that I cannot wait to explore! minus the hangover.. 

       

( I could not get Octopus Garden from La Beatles out of my head all day ) 

  I leave in two weeks.. and I feel more excited and ready for it now..  my wedding table is coming together beautifully..  communication with my cordinator is at an all time high.. and at this point.. I dont really care what happens.. it is going to be amazing.. 

   I am spent.. we followed up the stag yesterday with a bridal shower by my mama and Jeannie today… It was great.. and the food was amazing as always..  I was spoiled beyond what was necessary and came away with some awesome gifts.. and I scored two great baskets out of the deal! sa-weet.. it is now sitting on my kitchen counter.. waiting for me to get some sleep and than take it all apart! 

       

       

  I am ready for bed..  I thought I would end this post with a picture of me that doesnt look like octopus hair! ahah.. but instead doing my FIRST muff dive shot.. it was ugly!

  Thank you for the great time ladies!!  and I will always remember it.. because when the lights went out for earth hour..10 minutes before our food came.. and I ate in the dark with one lone candle and a glowing ring pop.. it was fan-freakin-tastic!   and every earth hour until I can no longer remember my name..  I will think of my stag-do.. my hen party.. my bachelorette shindig!! p.s. did I note one of my pet peeves is eating in the dark! 

        

… please note that I barely even took down any liquor…

countdown

  I am tired.. tired tired tired.. and no .. I am not preggo ;)  lol..  I was really banking on some good ol wedding stress to keep me up at night.. and wake me early in the morn.. just like my maid of honor luella! she used to be up at like 5:30 am doing things for her wedding.. although she had 7 times more people to entertain :)  The wedding is almost together! it feels great..  I dont even think there is anything else to email my wedding cordinator ( I am sure she is relieved ).. any tips out there from anyone about the big day would be very much appreciated!kacey151515@hotmail.com I know every Bride strides for this.. but I really want to take the whole day in and remember as much as I can. I figure that one thing I have going for me is that we have lived together for over three years.. and we have a love child.. I mean .. the element of “surprise” , “did I make the right choice?” and “will this be the father of my children” is kind of out the window at this moment! I am very excited for this wedding.. and looking where I am now.. and if I would have had a simple one with just the three of us somewhere.. I know I would have regret that. I need my daddy to walk me down that sandy aisle!

  For my handful of friends that follow this blog.. you know this is not me.. or my dad.. or Dustin.. lol.. but isnt that a cute dress and a great veil!  

  We have taken a lot of “wedding” things out of the wedding.. and kept it kind of party/causal.. because I dont want the stress of having an order to the wedding … only to look back and not even care if it happens..  We have a couple things we are keeping… a couple toasts/speeches..  conga lines.. and tequilla tastings ;)  but all those things are standard right?!  I picked out my flowers.. I like that I had 5 choices.. and I just picked one..  I dont even know what kind of flowers these even are!

                                                   …on another note…

  My little peanut pop has a fever… a raging body fever.. we stand outside in a diaper.. she gets a cold cloth.. lots of fluid.. but she wont eat.. and when you are dealing with an almost 16 month old who is maybe tipping the scales at 18 lbs now.. it scares me.. I feel like I am going to crunch her rib cage when I hold her..  but she still motors around and calls people on my cell phone.. ( I always said I would not be a cell phone mom.. that she can play with her toys and that is mommys toys.. and yet.. when we are in a restaurant and her high pitched squeel kicks in (its the red hair) and my food just hit the table.. yes. she gets her ultimate favorite thing to play with! and she calls grandma.. and daddys work.. and anna a lot.. because anna is first in my contact list. Olive didnt care that anna was on a plane to toronto.. she called her anyways.. she gets this look in her eyes like… I must have it! and so I cave.. it is a hunk of crap anyways!!

 and now I must get back to this house.. this new life filled with toys.. tambourines, two high chairs,  and a kitchen table filled with wedding trinkets.. and even though it is raining outside for the first time in weeks it seems.. and all I want to do it go get some grocerys, rent Julie and Julia.. and make a comfy little bed on the floor with my bear bear while daddy is in Miami.. I must clean!  (who are we kidding though.. that stuff can be done in a couple of minutes.. )

  I am sure you have heard me talk aboutwww.kellehampton.com before?! she is amazing.. she has honestly changed my perpective on being a mama.. she balances her life so well between housework and playing on the lawn.. and getting outside and letting your kids get dirty..  everyone should follow her blog.. she is a young hot mama who had  her second daughter who was born with down syndrome (she didnt know until she delivered) and the way this baby has changed her life!!  and everyones lives across the world right now.. it is awesome! and she also posted a photo that I hope to replicate at my wedding in 2 1/2 weeks ..

 I just love it.. I have always loved the water ( minus sharks and deep parts of the ocean) but the sounds and feel.. and waves.. and always thought  that I am to live by the water in my life.. and this picture just resonates with me. I am excited to be surrounded by friends.. family.. and LIFE at my wedding as I get married 04/16/2010..I look forward to that day of anxiety.. relief.. tears.. laughter.. love.. and creating unforgetable moments..

   I hope everyone will have a margarita on that day for me that could not make it!! or a virgin if you are preggo or breastfeeding ;) I love the month of April.. there is something about it! spring.. fresh.. life.. sun.. everything gets to bloom again.. April is a good month to get married ;)

confession

  I have a guilty confession.. it is my love for Michelle Williams.. (luella can vouch for this) .. whenever I have OD’d on facebook and perezhilton.. I  google her.. and see what she is up to these days! I dont know if it is because since grade 8 people have told me I look like her.. or my pure sorrow for her loss of her baby daddy.. but I love her! especially since heath ledger took her under his wing and hollywood’ized her.  

there.. it is out.. 

I really learned it all from mothers

 I am a huge beleiver in learning from other mamas.. anytime you go online .. all that pops up is cancer anyways ;)  when I was all baby crazy the first 2 weeks.. jacked up on vicoden and almost no food.. I literally called my sister 10-15 times a day crying.. asking for advice.. to the point where she told me I already knew half he answers.. and get my shit together (thank you for that!) I really did need to hear it.. I am also thankful that she answered the phone at midnight last night.. when olives fever went from raging body heat.. to a popsicle.. this was the first time I had experienced it.. blue lips.. shaking cold.. freezing hands and feet.. I was scared..  I thought I had overdosed her tiny little body on tylenol.. in reality.. she only had it twice 12 hours apart..  but all those fears come swarming in.. and I was alone while the daddy was in Miami.. i made her a warm bottle and put her into my bed (for the first time ever!.. umm.. I may be addicted now) wrapped every blanket I had around her.. where she layed like a mummy.. which is not olive at all.. this girl likes to explore.. 40 minutes later.. still shaking.. I called my sister.. she let me know I did not overdose my peanut pop on one dropper of tylenol. lol.. and take off off the five blankies and go to bed.. so we slept side by side.. correction.. head in my face.. feet in my face.. she turned over about 50 times.. curled up like a froggy.. it was great.. I got to watch her little face sleep.. I lied there not fully asleep.. waking up anytime she moved fearing she would roll over the pillows and ker-plunk on the floor..  fearing for her safetly.. and how in those moments.. you truley would sell everything you have and give it all away just so the little ones are ok.. I thought of driving her to the hospital.. (where is the closest one here?) I thought about having to transfer money online before I left to cover the co pay( i cant get a credit card in this country because I have not been here “long enough”)  and I thought about how I would have to fill out paper work holding my scared child while I am bra less with make up down my face.. in horrible oversized pjs and ratty hair.. and than I started to get angry and wish I was home.. (this doesnt happen to often.. mostly at 2am in moments like these ;) I honestly feel like my mother knows everything.. I really hope that Olive grows up thinking the same about me.. 

  she is still asleep.. now in her crib.. and her body is back to normal..  and you look back in the night and laugh at how crazy random your thoughts can be.. I fear when my second baby comes that I wont have enough attention to give her.. and only hope that I can do half a good a job as my momma.. I truley believe independence is key.. I try to  ”cut the cord” many times and let her explore this great world.. I cannot wait to send her away to places when she is older.. explore the earth with her and send her off into the world with confidence.  if that is all I accomplish.. I will be satisfied!

things I am excited for… 2010 edition

- being married

- vacationing with my famalia

- drinking mimosas in Greece every morning

- drinking sangria in Greece every sunset

- witnessing the “most beautiful sunset in the world” in Santorini

- spending time with Dustin.. baby free

- planning for baby #2

- enjoying the simplicity of life after the wedding is over!

food for thought

  I realize that me.. and most woman out there.. have issues with our bodies.. especially when you gain 37 pounds with the majority of that being in the belly region. but why oh why does it have to be so hard? I hear people .. Julia Roberts and Bette midler.. say that being in their 40’s/50’s is the most liberating and best time in their life! Do I really have to wait until I am fifty to finally feel confident in this bag of bones?I know that my mind set has a lot to do with it.. but I dont think I am closing the magazine covers or shutting off TMZ anytime soon.. don’t get me wrong.. I am not going for waif here.. but strong and lean… it doesnt help me when I think of all the procedures I can get done to get back there when I am older.. but who am I kidding.. I fast for three days for a colonoscopy (worst 3 days of my life) and backed out at the last minute.. literally.. on the bed.. starting to put the IV in.. and me and my mom made a mad dash with a bag of oatmeal raisin cookies in our hands..and the Dr insisting that he was going to charge me for this.. just to run home and eat parmesan chicken wings that she had prepped just for moi! I hate anything that could cause me to die.. and ever since I have had Olive.. it just got worse.. now vehicles and walking at night scares me.. dont even get me started on airplanes ;)  I know I will never get back to square one pre baby.. I mean.. things shift and move and grow.. but I want to come a close second.. especially before baby number two joins my uterus..  

  Now dont get me wrong.. I am not sitting at home draping myself in black garb and shutting out the world.. but is it to much to feel great in a t shirt again without pulling and tugging.. and sucking in! I tried really hard not to come across as a whiner.. I am on week 2 of P90X.. down 4 lbs.. and ran for ten full minutes at the gym.. which is huge for me..  

  Long story short.. I am done making excuses.. which they all are.. it is crunch time.. 

I will now post a picture of my body 2 weeks after P90X

crunch time

ok.. wedding checklist is not getting checked off fast enough! must kick it up a notch.. I am also trying out how to pack for olive and make sure she has what she needs.. excluding the kitchen sink!! lol  Olive has had a much better day today.. that molar is keeping me on my toes these days.. Being the true Virgo that I am .. I have about ten lists on my  computer and all over my kitchen table that are dying to be covered in a highlighter and checked off.. why oh why am I addicted to stationary!?!?!?

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this is Olives new “Grandma Phone”.. it connects her straight to Heaven so we can talk to grandma anytime we need!  she gets so excited when we talk to it:) .. yesterday our call was dropped.. darn you verizon!

Thank you for the music.. The songs I’m singing

  Today is the day.. Everything will be conquered for my wedding TODAY!! I went to bed last night thinking about how I am excited for my wedding to be somewhat of a “surprise”..  I am putting my faith in good Ol barely speaks English Rebeca!  I could be married in a pile of poo eating expired beef bites with a piece of twine on my finger.. and it would be prefect!!  I mean.. it has to be .. right?! 

  The Bear-Bear is still sleeping.. she was up twice last night.. I think it was the second molar we discovered as she took a chunk of my finger off..

   We watched Mamma Mia for the 143’354 time last night.. It is my all time favorite movie! I know it word for word.. We are creating the wedding table scene for my reception.. I am honeymoonin’ in Greece! all that is missing is Pierce Brosnan.. oh how I love thee.. bad singing and all.. maybe I will be lucky enough to have him be in Santorini filming a scene for Mamma Mia 2.. and there under the clean, star filled sky.. I will snap photos of him until his body guard throws my camera into the Aegean Sea! ( i thought with getting married in 3 weeks.. it was to early to speak of a love affair) so I kept it clean for you!! 

  

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?

March 18th, 2010

handled

phew.. I feel like I am finally getting things done! While Olive “napped” upstairs.. I tackled a couple projects! Because of work and days off.. I am technically only required to make two home made dinners :0   and I dropped the ball last night when my home made dinner was made by the Kernel…  I dont know if it is this time change.. or to much on my plate.. but before I knew it.. it was 6:45pm.. and there was only a couple checks on the old to do list..  

  Three and a half weeks until I am on a plane tying the knot.. and I am trying to take my own advice that I send into everyones ears before their big day…” I have my dress.. we have our rings.. and thats all that matter! everything else is a bonus.. ”  I hear everyone say that their day is a blur anyways..lol.. so I am keeping it simple.. My wedding planner just suggested gold chandelier centerpieces!  I am happy to say.. me and her are finally on the same page! you try to cram as much possible into the one email we send back and forth every two days.. and she only ever answers one question.. lol.. so I am putting my faith in her and excited to see how it all turns out!

my little birdies finally made it in the mail the other day .. 

                How much fun are these name cards!! 

I thought I would end this blog with a picture of the bear-bear.. you might not recognize her.. because she looks like a male chimpanzee.. but I assure you.. it is her!

March 17th, 2010

No time better…

This is huge for me.. I feel like I can admit I am an addict.. lol.. but my time with facebook is done.. It is taking over my world. I am watching people live their lives.. instead of fully living mine! Don’t get me wrong.. I am not hunched over my computer 12 hours a day with unwashed hair and olive is running around with the neighbourhood kids.. ok.. sometimes my hair isnt washed!  We go out and do things.. and enjoy beautiful sunny days.. We are at such a great age and its just me and Oli time until we have our second baby.. and I want to enjoy more of it..  I am going down just to my family and close friends that I talk to weekly.. 

On another note! 

  Olive stood up on her own the other day!  It was crazy.. she stood there for a couple seconds .. and than realized that she is almost 16 months.. and refuses to walk for her mama.. so she fell to the ground!  I know.. I know.. her time will come ;)

  I also did something today that I swore I would never do.. I put her in a matching pink track suit… I dont know why I thought I wouldnt like them.. It was a gift.. hot pink and green polo track suit..  and today is her day to wear it.. and it looks adorable.. I think I need to stop fighting my hatred for pink.. and her cuteness in wearing it.. 

  We have finally cemented our honeymoon plans! We are going to Greece.. one of my favorite places in the world..  two islands.. loads of feta.. five star hotels.. honeymoon style.. We have realized that we will not have another trip like this for a long time :(  and do it now while we can .. 

to do list..

to do list

- plan wedding

- lose 10 lbs

- get olive to walk

- work

- get married

- enjoy this sunshine

March 16th, 2010

Out enjoying a beautiful sunny Saturday..

I am keeping this photo sideways. because I didnt know how to turn it around on one of my first posts :)

My Wedding Inspiration.. One.. Month..Today.. 

March 16th, 2010

My little Olive

  I did have a photography Blog.. and thought that I needed one of just my day to day life.. Olive is changing so much these days and I want it all written down and photographed along the way.. I had a thought today about her and her well being.. it flashed me back to her first week of life when I was crazy and hormonal and recovering from a C-section (which still shakes me to the core and makes me wonder if once child will do.. )  I was undressing her.. and trying to be so careful.. only to run my thumb nail up her beautiful fresh yellow jaundice skin!  I cried longer than she did.. That brings me to today.. I got her out of bed.. and was preparing breakfast.. must get my 15 month.. 17 pound baby to bulk up.. and I clipped the skin on her leg into her highchair buckle.. It was like that for probably 15 seconds before her skin sensors hit her brain and she started flailing and screaming around.. I unclicked her trying to figure out what happened.. only to realize  I had caused that pain!!  and now she has a blood blisture on her leg!.. I felt horrible..  To think we are only on month 15.. what happens when she goes off to college and gets married?

This photo felt appropriate