Sunday, June 27, 2010

hush little baby..



ok.. me and olive are not on the same wave length as of lately..me coming home from honeymoon..  she screams when we put her to bed around 70% of the time.. I really want to emphasize the word scream.. top of the lungs.. scared.. sweating.. scrunched up closed eyes .. where the heck are my parents screaming..  and than the other 30 % she goes down without a peep.. even blows me a kiss on the way out.. it is breaking my heart.. there are actual cracks in it..  I am trying to be a tough parent.. and have started giving her 10 minute limits.. than go in and comfort her.. and once she is comforted.. she will usually go back down.. but I am so on the fence about it..  I mean.. this could be my only baby I ever get.. and I am wasting precious baby years letting her cry and scream when I should be rocking and cuddling.. all I ever asked for was one baby through this body.. just one..( due to come baby making complications) and  I would adopt the rest.. and now I have the one baby.. and want to enjoy it all..  
whats a mama to do.. 
I googled crying baby because I didnt want to put a sad one of her up.. and I thought it was odd.. that this baby almost looks like her! 

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