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  I am drained.. I know my 37 week friend two doors down is laughing at this right now! I cannot figure out what is wrong with moi.. I left work early yesterday with the shakes and pure body exhaustion.. I am trying an iron supplement but no results thus far…

moving on

  It has finally started to hit me.. I am leaving my bubbas for 2 weeks :0  once I am there.. I know I will have my moments.. but I am trying to take her in as much as I can right now.. and for the first time ever.. she cried when I left her the other day.. she came to visit me at work and I walked away and she crawled after me crying.. why now.. I drop her off at my mommas in one week today.. and than we are off!!

 I know I am a dreamer.. so this next post is to that.. I had this thought the other day.. how I am always wanting more.. I was so grateful to go to Mexico.. and when we told people we were celebrating our honeymoon in Greece.. their mouths dropped..  one table actually looked at me.. than back at his table and quote” where do all these kids get all this f@#!-in money ”  I informed him it was by me sitting here serving his food and drinks to him.. instead of being at home snuggling my baby.. (he wasnt impressed)..  is this something everyone does and just doesnt talk about? or does everybody always want more.. I dont think its because I am never satisfied.. I just want to drink as much sweet nectar as I can out of this earth..  I am already planning morning coffees in the summer on my patio.. and camping trips with my twinnie in Vernon.. and try out camping here in the americas..please note.. that I dont own anything camping related other than a cooler..  but in my head I have it all.. mosquito tents.. cots.. camping stoves and marshmellow sticks..  I refuse to give up mentally and think that I cannot have it all.. I mean.. I am not asking for yachts and a private chef!  although after listening to The Secret.. I just might ;) 

look at that face.. that is a face that knows we are going places!

  I cannot wait to give her the world.. and when she is old enough.. take her to all these great places and teach her about the world.. by being in it.. not just reading about it in  The Wild Things.. or Dr. Suess books.. right now we are just amazing each other with words like bananas and donkey.. and one day soon.. she may just start walking for me!! now that is a dream I cannot wait for!!