head first baby..

A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie.

I know I have quote this before.. but it still gets me..because it just reminds me of this proud mama and how mamas give up so many things to have a family..  this last week has been particularly draining on me.. I was not expecting it..  it was even hard for me to leave her for work today.. which  always comes easy on a  4:00  Monday ;)  I have a friend who was taken from the H1N1 disease.. and it was her birthday a few days ago.. and I just think of her poor mother and baby girl.. who is not even 2 years old yet.. I think about it to the point of anger and rage.. I cannot move out of that stage.. something so silly as a flu took her life.. and I think of how easy things can be taken away from us..  her momma writes me these nice emails that shake me to the core.. because you know they are honest and real and come from the truth.. there are times to drop stupid petty things.. and there are so many life moments.. that you just need to join your kids on the floor.. and colour with those big jumbo markers and get messy.. everything washes off and fades away..  but just live with your kids.. not for your kids.. or around your kids.. but in their lives.. head first.. the first five years of their lives is the icing on the cake.. than they are off to school.. and influenced by others.. and dabbling in things.. and I don’t want to miss this first 5 with them because I was worried about blueberries smudged into my carpet.. (which is quite an accurate statement for my house these days).. I guess it takes having an “almost” moment that sets things into perspective.. it could have ended a lot worse.. and I am grateful for whom ever was watching her that day.. aka.. this woman

I love you baby O